Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition often start with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for three hours.
About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.
Ancient healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.
In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
National guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.
But consultant specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a